Coming to Realizations

Man-Praying-600x399Bad things happen to good people.  If you have any experience in life, you know that you can try your hardest to do things right and still make a mess. It took me a long time to learn that even though honesty is the best policy, life will still throw you a mud pie or two. Right now I’m on vacation and my kids are in the next room playing video games.  Like most parents I’m wondering how long I should let them play while I enjoy the freedom of being alone.  That’s the pretend game most parents play.  “How are you all doing in there?!”, we dutifully yell out to them.   “Fine”, they holler back;  and as long as the house isn’t burning down, we have glorious, to die for, alone time.

I’ll tell you more about my journey, but for now, let’s just say that after being lied to and used for the first half of my life, I’m in a good place for self-awareness.  I know what it feels like to make big mistakes and I know what it feels like to recover. In this blog, I plan to offer words,and thoughts of encouragement for those going through troubling times in their life. Everyone needs encouragement.  Sometimes just bible quotes and short thoughts, and sometimes I’ll write on life lessons.

I got saved (Born Again) in 1982.  So its been 33 years.   It is, absolutely,  the best thing that’s ever happened to me.  The second best thing is my husband and third my children.  The order of the second and the third gets mixed up though, depending on what drama is going on that particular day; but I love my family, and I love my walk with Christ.

I started this blog, because I wrote a book, ” How to Walk on Water: A Christian’s Survival Guide for Going Through Trials.   A long title, but accurate, nevertheless.  I take a deep look at the areas Christians struggle to maintain while they’re going through difficult times.  Many of us Christians forget that when we give our heart and life to God, he doesn’t send trouble to hurt us.  God is trying to make us better, deeper,  and closer to Him.  After many years of counseling other Christians, I wanted to write a book where a person could pick any chapter and receive something to meditate on and receive encouragement.  For many years I labored under the fallacy that once a person gets saved, God’s power and love fixes everything.  But I’ve come to realize, that this simply puts you in the Colosseum to fight the beasts, it doesn’t make them disappear.  In the end though, I’d rather have problems with God on my side, than have those same problems, and nowhere to turn.

I’m realizing more and more that our backgrounds don’t have to dictate our outcome. I preached a message recently that called for a lot of self-examination on my part called, “What is your Name?”  The idea was that Jacob had inherited so many bad traits from his mother’s side of the family, that he seemed doomed to be a conniving thief most of his life. God in his mercy did not leave Jacob with bad character. God made Jacob face himself and his deficiencies, and Jacob was humble enough to do the work necessary to change his name from Jacob “supplanter” to Isreal.”God has prevailed”.   God changed Jacob’s heart and his thinking.  While meditating on this message, God revealed to me my own inherited traits, and what I needed to do.  I was letting parts of my background dictate my outcome. I was allowing my weaknesses and low self-worth to dictate my life, and what God means for me to become. Even though I survived spiritual abuse, I had internalized the subtle put-downs, the cold-shouldered neglect, and the jealousies.  My husband always quoted Les Brown to me and said, ” “Honey, don’t let someone else’s opinion of you become your reality.” After years of him quoting this to me, I am finally getting his drift.  These are realizations I am holding near and dear to my heart at this point in my life and I’m finally getting the courage to ignore the noise and focus on God’s will, and it’s beautiful thing to be free.