Changing Habits-It’s Tough

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There’s one thing difficult about changing habits. Ugh! It’s the fact that they are HABITS. Things that are so deeply ingrained in our psyche and existence that they become second nature. I almost think that if I don’t continue my daily patterns of behavior, something is terribly wrong. Like the way I plop down on the couch when I come home and immediately get a plate of food and watch something. It’s my way of relaxing don’t judge. If anyone tries to break this routine, I immediately go into a defensive mode. “Wait until I eat dinner”, “I just got home”. Internally I am truly upset with them for daring to ask me to do anything other than the usual. It’s a horrible habit though. The routine is: girdle off, plate of food and the sofa.

My family laughs at me because this is such a routine that half the time the next morning I have no idea where anything is. I zone out after work.

I have deceived myself over the years into believing I’m really resting by doing this but I’m not. There’s a difference between just sitting and relaxing because I’m thinking about things I have to do–the other bad habit —overthinking.

New Habits

I’ve been changing my health habits and its been tough. One of my biggest problems in losing weight has been my ridiculous, helter skelter schedule and lack of organization in my eating. I never plan what I’m eating the next day. Sometimes breakfast, sometimes none. Maybe lunch or fast food and then dinner–glorious dinner, the golden calf of my day. I come home, sit and eat. Not a health based routine at all. My therapist recently did hypnotherapy with me and we discovered this complete disconnection I have with my body. We already uncovered my reasons for overeating and it had with the violence in my home growing up. It had become by coping mechanism for stress.

So I am trying to listen to and stay connected with my body now.

It’s telling me to get moving.

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So sorry body I treated you so badly all these years.

I’ve stopped the habit of coming home and plopping on the couch and eating the evening away. I’ve made dinner shorter and I make myself get up and do something else before bed.

That part. Really hard. Me no want to move.

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One of my friends has been into running. She’s so inspiring. I figured if she can have a great exercise habit, then I can give myself the same new habit. So for the last month or two I’ve been swimming at least 3-4 days per week (even after work sometimes), taking stairs and increasing my walking. My doctor was elated. Without medication mind you (because it kept making me sick), my A1C dropped almost 1.5 points. He’s trying to find a substitute drug to help me lower it even more. Hopefully I may not even need it by the time I finish making changes to my eating habits. If God gave me the good sense to eat right and exercise, I’m going to do what it takes to get healthy.

It’s just a matter of taking care of the body God blessed me with.

Not only that, I’ve been studying up on the Forks Over Knives way of eating for a few months, and I’ve been slowly making changes to my eating habits. I’m not totally there yet, but I’ve been creeping in that direction. Recently, since I already had my dinners delivered, I made the decision to change to a company that offered whole food plant based dinners.

Seriously, delivery dinners have been a life saver in terms of having a decent meal. It’s that crazy at my house. I made a big announcement “Fend for yourselves for dinner, mama is taking care of mama for a change”.

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My son looked at me with total disinterest and my daughter who hates cooking just said “uh, okay”.

Oh goody. I thought I’d get complaints.

4 More Pounds Down. Yea!

One change I’ve made is eating fruit for breakfast. I decided to just go simple, and you know what? That little change recently helped me drop 4 more pounds. I learned this breakfast principle at a detox center I went to years ago in Michigan that followed the Ann Wigmore dietary principles of eating. It’s tough some mornings because of those horrible eating habits and the mentality that if I’m not knee deep in maple syrup, then I haven’t eaten the most important meal of the day.

I’m using Saturday mornings as my prep time for the week to eat healthier. I’m not a vegan, and I refuse to be a junk-food-vegetarian. I still love my occasional catfish and I have absolutely no moral qualms about meat and animals, but health-wise I see the wisdom in staying more plant based.

Happy healthy eating to everyone. Feel free to share your eating journeys in the comments below.

Author: Renee

I am an author, spiritual counselor, minister, and Bible teacher. My passion since going through my own battles with spiritual abuse and self-reflection is spiritual awareness. So often we go to church and are still not aware of our disconnection with our true selves. The person inside that God deeply values. My husband and I have been married for over 30 years and have 3 children. I love gourmet cooking, swimming, all kinds of music and political and religious discussion- the two things my mom said never to talk about at the dinner table.