Changing Habits-It’s Tough

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There’s one thing difficult about changing habits. Ugh! It’s the fact that they are HABITS. Things that are so deeply ingrained in our psyche and existence that they become second nature. I almost think that if I don’t continue my daily patterns of behavior, something is terribly wrong. Like the way I plop down on the couch when I come home and immediately get a plate of food and watch something. It’s my way of relaxing don’t judge. If anyone tries to break this routine, I immediately go into a defensive mode. “Wait until I eat dinner”, “I just got home”. Internally I am truly upset with them for daring to ask me to do anything other than the usual. It’s a horrible habit though. The routine is: girdle off, plate of food and the sofa.

My family laughs at me because this is such a routine that half the time the next morning I have no idea where anything is. I zone out after work.

I have deceived myself over the years into believing I’m really resting by doing this but I’m not. There’s a difference between just sitting and relaxing because I’m thinking about things I have to do–the other bad habit —overthinking.

New Habits

I’ve been changing my health habits and its been tough. One of my biggest problems in losing weight has been my ridiculous, helter skelter schedule and lack of organization in my eating. I never plan what I’m eating the next day. Sometimes breakfast, sometimes none. Maybe lunch or fast food and then dinner–glorious dinner, the golden calf of my day. I come home, sit and eat. Not a health based routine at all. My therapist recently did hypnotherapy with me and we discovered this complete disconnection I have with my body. We already uncovered my reasons for overeating and it had with the violence in my home growing up. It had become by coping mechanism for stress.

So I am trying to listen to and stay connected with my body now.

It’s telling me to get moving.

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So sorry body I treated you so badly all these years.

I’ve stopped the habit of coming home and plopping on the couch and eating the evening away. I’ve made dinner shorter and I make myself get up and do something else before bed.

That part. Really hard. Me no want to move.

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One of my friends has been into running. She’s so inspiring. I figured if she can have a great exercise habit, then I can give myself the same new habit. So for the last month or two I’ve been swimming at least 3-4 days per week (even after work sometimes), taking stairs and increasing my walking. My doctor was elated. Without medication mind you (because it kept making me sick), my A1C dropped almost 1.5 points. He’s trying to find a substitute drug to help me lower it even more. Hopefully I may not even need it by the time I finish making changes to my eating habits. If God gave me the good sense to eat right and exercise, I’m going to do what it takes to get healthy.

It’s just a matter of taking care of the body God blessed me with.

Not only that, I’ve been studying up on the Forks Over Knives way of eating for a few months, and I’ve been slowly making changes to my eating habits. I’m not totally there yet, but I’ve been creeping in that direction. Recently, since I already had my dinners delivered, I made the decision to change to a company that offered whole food plant based dinners.

Seriously, delivery dinners have been a life saver in terms of having a decent meal. It’s that crazy at my house. I made a big announcement “Fend for yourselves for dinner, mama is taking care of mama for a change”.

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My son looked at me with total disinterest and my daughter who hates cooking just said “uh, okay”.

Oh goody. I thought I’d get complaints.

4 More Pounds Down. Yea!

One change I’ve made is eating fruit for breakfast. I decided to just go simple, and you know what? That little change recently helped me drop 4 more pounds. I learned this breakfast principle at a detox center I went to years ago in Michigan that followed the Ann Wigmore dietary principles of eating. It’s tough some mornings because of those horrible eating habits and the mentality that if I’m not knee deep in maple syrup, then I haven’t eaten the most important meal of the day.

I’m using Saturday mornings as my prep time for the week to eat healthier. I’m not a vegan, and I refuse to be a junk-food-vegetarian. I still love my occasional catfish and I have absolutely no moral qualms about meat and animals, but health-wise I see the wisdom in staying more plant based.

Happy healthy eating to everyone. Feel free to share your eating journeys in the comments below.

UPSTAIRS DOWNSTAIRS CHURCH STRUCTURE

downloadI began to wonder as I looked around my church if I was in an episode of  Upstairs/Downstairs?  Is there a servant class and an upper class.  There are the ministers and then the lowly people who can only speak a certain way to the leaders etc.  We went one day when our pastor was sick to visit and one person exclaimed  in wonder and awe of his position, “how do I encourage my pastor”.    I bristled at this ( not visibly) but I thought “the same way you would anyone else who was sick”.  Somehow we’ve got it twisted that a Pastor is someone other just a man or woman who are kept by God like we are by the same Spirit.images

A reader of this blog reminded me of another essential reason abusiveness happens in our American churches, and that is an incorrect church structure. The church is supposed to be comprised of many members who make up the body of Christ. I Corinthians 12 gives us a picture of God’s church and the balance that’s supposed to happen in the body. This is the opposite of pastoral authoritarianism.  I think incorrect church structure is a breeding ground for corrupt leadership. Whenever we fail to follow scripture in any area, we’ll suffer some negative consequences. If the Pastor constitutes all the decisions and all of the leadership, then that is not the scriptural definition of the body of Christ. Continue reading “UPSTAIRS DOWNSTAIRS CHURCH STRUCTURE”

Story #3 Reclaiming Childhood After Religious Abuse

In our religion, having control over your children was seen as a ticket to heaven. This is the case for many parents in fundamentalist churches and belief systems. The theology is that God entrusts the child’s soul into your hands and you as the parent are responsible for bringing up the child in the fear of God. Unfortunately, what should be a beautiful thing becomes tainted with someone’s personal ideology of child rearing. Continue reading “Story #3 Reclaiming Childhood After Religious Abuse”

He Arose! Happy Easter Sunday

It’s Resurrection Sunday. Here’s the lyrics to one of the old hymnal Christian classics. Have a great day . He’s worthy of all praise.

Low in the grave He lay,
Jesus, my Savior,
Waiting the coming day,
Jesus, my Lord!
Up from the grave He arose,
With a mighty triumph o’er His foes,
He arose a Victor from the dark domain,
And He lives forever, with His saints to reign.
He arose! He arose!
Hallelujah! Christ arose!
Vainly they watch His bed,
Jesus, my Savior;
Vainly they seal the dead,
Jesus, my Lord!
Death cannot keep his Prey,
Jesus, my Savior;
He tore the bars away,
Jesus, my Lord!

Are You Attending Church Today?

With one of the biggest Sundays on the Christian calendar coming up, I wanted to address this issue because some people will feel compelled to attend Easter Services even if they go no other time of the year. I usually would be at church front and center, but lately, I have not been a member of any congregation. It may not always stay that way, but I just have not felt led to any place at this time. After 30 years of going 4 times a week or more I know he is all-knowing and understands where I’m at in my spiritual walk. Involvement in a church community, and not just attending once or twice a year can be a beautiful thing.

Continue reading “Are You Attending Church Today?”