I have new goals and a new life. A total change from the last 30 years. Not without problems, though, but a new outlook. A more mature outlook. I am excited about my future and my family and we are getting closer everyday.
A recent scripture came into focus for me.
Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust…
Blessed is the person that makes God his confidence and confidant. I am leaning on Him and relying on Him, whatever else I rely on in life: connections, education, or charisma, the Word of God always leads me back to the fact that none of those things means anything without trust in God.
I’m reminded that God is in control even when my life seems chaotic. I remind myself of this time and time again. Each time, the situation is different. Often more complex or difficult than the last in some way, shape, or form.
It all has to do with our trusting God in our circumstances and for our life. This doesn’t mean being impractical or shrugging shoulders just hoping it works out. That is leaving your life to fate with no direction. God gives direction. There are efforts we have to put forth that are within our reach, and then we see what God will do.
I remind myself that God takes care of the flowers and birds which we pay so little attention to, and yet, he still is focused on us and our problems in every detail, even when it seems that he’s left us alone.
When I feel alone in my troubles, I’m reminded that Christ felt alone on the cross. He also felt God had forsaken him when God was indeed with him more than ever as he completed his divine mission.
It’s odd how God in our creation blessed us with emotions. They are a blessing even though they can often seem a curse. Oh, that we could go through life and feel nothing. But we only wish that kind of stuff when things hurt. We hate pain, and so don’t want anything to befall us that’s painful.
We only love our emotions when things are well. I guess it’s all part of being human. But I’m learning to deal with the devil on my shoulder and push negativity aside. Often I have to ignore feelings and that voice in my head that screams doom and disaster, just to get through the day.
Sometimes it seems like torture, and other times, I begin to understand the value of those emotions. They teach me to overcome.
They teach me that feelings are not truth itself, they are only reactions to truths and circumstances.
I am determined more than ever not to let the past dictate my future or encroach on the present.
We have a family crisis but we are hopeful for the new year because of our reliance on the Lord. So many don’t have confidence in the son of God, but I do. I believe he is all that he says he is.
Focus on the good things.
It takes practice when you’re surrounded by pressures and problems, but it’s worth the effort to stay positive, to stay present.
Trust in the Lord is a wonderful thing.